PURPOSE BECOMES A BATTLEFIELD...EVERY STEP IS A NEW TASK AND FEAR INCREASES MERCILESSLY, UNYIELDINGLY...
'...THUS HE HAS STUMBLED UPON THE FIRST OF HIS NATURAL ENEMIES: FEAR! A TERRIBLE ENEMY----TREACHEROUS, AND DIFFICULT TO OVERCOME. IT REMAINS CONCEALED AT EVERY TURN OF THE WAY, PROWLING, WAITING. AND IF THE MAN, TERRIFIED IN ITS PRESENCE, RUNS AWAY, HIS ENEMY WILL HAVE PUT AN END TO HIS QUEST'
WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE MAN IF HE RUNS AWAY IN FEAR?
'NOTHING EXCEPT THAT HE WILL NEVER LEARN. HE WILL NEVER BECOME A MAN OF KNOWLEDGE. HE WILL PERHAPS BECOME A BULLY OR A SCARED MAN; AT ANY RATE, HE WILL BE A DEFEATED MAN. HIS FIRST ENEMY WILL HAVE PUT AN END TO HIS CRAVINGS'
...WHAT CAN HE DO TO OVERCOME FEAR?
...HE MUST NOT RUN AWAY...HE MUST DEFY HIS FEAR...IN SPITE OF IT HE MUST TAKE THE NEXT STEP IN LEARNING, AND THE NEEXT, AND THE NEXT...AND A MOMENT WILL COME WHEN THE FIRST ENEMY RETREATS. THE MAN FEELS SURE OF HIMSELF...INTENT IS STRONGER...LEARNING IS NO LONGER A TERRIFYING TASK. IT OCCURS LITTLE BY LITTLE BUT SUDDENLY FEAR IS VANQUISHED ...SUDDENLY AND FAST...
ONCE HE VANQUISHES FEAR THEN 'CLARITY' ERASES FEAR YET BECOMES AN OBSTACLE FOR HE KNOWS HIS DESIRES AND HOW TO SATISFY THEM...
HE DOES NOT DOUBT HIMSELF...STOPS AT NOTHING...ANTICIPATES IN A SHARP CLARITY THAT SURROUNDS EVERYTHING-A CLARITY OF MIND THAT DISPELS FEAR BUT ALSO BLINDS...
HE DOES NOT DOUBT HIMSELF...STOPS AT NOTHING...ANTICIPATES IN A SHARP CLARITY THAT SURROUNDS EVERYTHING-A CLARITY OF MIND THAT DISPELS FEAR BUT ALSO BLINDS...
IT CAN BE A 'MAKE-BELIEVE' POWER THAT RESULTS IN A DEFEATED STATE WITHOUT ABILITY TO LEARN...HE MAY SETTLE INTO BEING A CLOWN OR A BUOYANT WARRIOR...HE MAY BE CLEAR THE REST OF HIS LIFE BUT HE MAY NOT LEARN OR YEARN...
IT IS NOW TIME TO OVERCOME DEFEAT-DEFY CLARITY AND USE IT ONLY TO SEE...WAIT PATIENTLY...MEASURE CAREFULLY...TO KNOW 'CLARITY' IS ALMOST A MISTAKE...A POINT BEFORE HIS EYES...A MOMENT ....
THUS POWER OF DOING AS HE WILLS...COMMANDS...MAKES RULES...LOSES SIGHT OF REAL SELF AND WHEN/WHERE TO USE POWER...HE MAY BE CRUEL AND CAPRICIOUS...BULLY OR TYRANT......HE DIES W/O KNOWING HOW TO USE POWER...
A MAN IS ONLY DEFEATED IF HE NO LONGER TRIES, AND ABANDONS HIMSELF...
THE 'DEFY' THE POWER...IN CONTROL OVER HIMSELF...TO HOLD EVERYTHING IN CHECK...TO KNOW WHEN AND HOW TO USE POWER...
TO BE IN POWER REALNESS AND ENCOUNTER 'OLD AGE'...THE CRUELEST OF ENEMIES...TO FIGHT AWAY WITH IT...........NO MORE FEARS, NO MORE DARKNESS...NO LONGER LEARN OR YEARN...
TO OVERCOME REST IN SOOTHING SELF IN TIREDNESS...TO LIVE ONES FATE THROUGH...
NOTES FROM CARLOS CASTENEDA...MAN OF KNOWLEDGE PGS.96-99 IN TEACHINGS OF DON JUAN. A YAQUI WAY OF KNOWLEDGE.../
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